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Worrier No More

     I know I am sometimes stubborn that I tend to be choosy and demanding when it comes to the people that God brings into my life.  More often than not, I would ask God, why them? why him? and as for people I like to be part of my life but that seem to be not coming in, I would still ask, why not?

     I kept thinking why I am still not in a relationship at this time.  It's been so many years now since I have someone special in my life.  It's been so long that I have tried to recover from the pains I have experienced because I decided to love. But, have I not really moved on from the dark memories of my past relationships?  Is there really no one good enough for me after my ex?  I seem to have a lot of questions and I don't have the ready answer.  I know, it's not as easy as if I will wake up one morning and some objects from the heavens will just suddenly drop and voila! the answers to my questions are there already.  I know I have to seek them, I have to find out what is really in store for me. I have to figure it out, but how am I gonna do that?  The answer is big "I don't know".  Where do I even start?

     I always close my eyes when I think, because that is the only time that darkness covers my mind and my sight, and then, I will begin to see light. I realized that when it comes to these kind of things, I am such a worrier. Yes I am! sadly.

...and then, I found this:

     ...and it struck me like a lightning.
And this is so true.  Why do I have to worry when my God is bigger than the biggest problem that ever existed?  Truly there is nothing that can't be done when God wills it.

     Well, is being single really a problem in the first place?  I know I have searched everywhere to find that true love, but I forgot to search nearer.  I was so looking at a distance that I forgot to search inside my heart.  God is really right when He wants me to stay calm and look inside my heart.  He is there. He has always been there, in fact, He never left.

       So, why would I worry now? I have a God who truly, genuinely, and unconditionally loves me.  I do not have to worry about love because it will never decrease, it will never cease.  

           For as long as there exists a God, I will be loved.

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