Lavender Reflections

     I know I am sometimes stubborn that I tend to be choosy and demanding when it comes to the people that God brings into my life.  More often than not, I would ask God, why them? why him? and as for people I like to be part of my life but that seem to be not coming in, I would still ask, why not?      I kept thinking why I am still not in a relationship at this time.  It's been so many years now since I have someone special in my life.  It's been so long that I have tried to recover from the pains I have experienced because I decided to love. But, have I not really moved on from the dark memories of my past relationships?  Is there really no one good enough for me after my ex?  I seem to have a lot of questions and I don't have the ready answer.  I know, it's not as easy as if I will wake up one morning and some objects from the heavens will just suddenly drop and voila! the answers to my questions are there already. ...

  I am back to blogging my Sunday mass experience, and I am happy about it.  I really can't wait to share the message I got in today's homily.  By the way, Father Vincent is back, he is my favorite priest so far.  I remembered attending masses before and I really couldn't bear to understand his homilies because his accent was different. (He is Indian)  But now, he is my favorite. It's as if I got used to it already and I always look forward to hearing his homily because there would always be a phrase or a verse that would strike me.           In today's gospel, Jesus said:   “So those who are last now will be first then, and those who are first will be last.”   -Matthew 20:16         It made me think where do we really stand in the kingdom of God.  Truly, most of us want to always stay at the backseat because we are too afraid or too shy, we become so nervous that we will be put on the spot i...