I realized I am not so good at forgiving because until this time, I have not forgiven him. It's been so many years already and I guess it's time that I give the forgiveness even if he is no longer asking for it. He asked for it several times before and my eyes were blind, my ears were deaf, and my heart was hardened. As I start the holy week, I realized that some things are needed to be done. I was really struck by these phrases: are you good at forgiving ? and I began to ask, am I forgiving as the Lord? I have sinned against Him, in fact so many times, and yet He keeps on loving and forgiving me. Why not forgive others too? That is why, to you Jay, I forgive you 100%. I will take away all my hatred towards you for that is only when I can totally forgive myself too and live a peaceful life -- a life that is blessed and loved ...